I loved you. I loved you wholeheartedly; Even though loving you was wrong. Even though everyone was against us. Even though I witnessed all your flaws.
The first time I gave you my "yes", everything was like perfect. You promised me that you'd make me happy and never hurt me. You promised me that you'd love me forever and never leave me. You promised me good future. Because I love you so much, I believed everything you said and live with your words. And because I was fed by your sweet words and warm touches, I didn't mind the flaws I see in you. Because for me, the love we had is much important above everything else.
I find myself lucky because you were at my side all the time. You always fetch me at work even if we were 29 km away. You always visit me at home though I know you lack sleep because of your work. You are not the same with other guys who gave false hope to their girlfriends by doing pakitang gilas by giving flowers, chocolates and teddy bears during monthsary, Valentines day and anniversary. You are the kind of guy who would give the thing that money cant buy, your time. You showed me how you cant live without seeing me in a day. You showed me how you struggle everytime we fight. You showed me how your day become incomplete without texting me.
You told me your mistakes in your past. It was a big challenge for me to accept it. That mistake was not simple because it may affect our future life. Still, I never gave up and tried to be strong even it hurt me a lot. It really hurt me a lot. I defended you. I fought for our love. Yes, everyone warned me, but I did not listen to them and I listen to my heart instead.
Our first Valentines day together, I wanted it to be perfect. But you showed up late and we ended up arguing and not celebrate the special occasion. So as our first anniversary. Friends asked me how we spent those occasions, I pretended everything was perfect and told stories that were only in my dreams.
I suffered the pain. I just told myself that our love is greater above everything. But I cant believe that in just a blink of an eye, I lose you. You are not the same person anymore. Because I woke up one day and found out that the one I love the most is a BIG LIAR!The one I love also love other woman. The one who made me feel special has another woman.
I reread your beautiful text messages making me all the time. I scanned our sweet photos together. Those were so sweet that no one can think you would "two timed" us. I love you my loves but I also love myself. And I dont want to this to happen again.
This maybe my first break up but I know time will heal. It may not be easy waking up each day without your greetings, without you asking hows my day but surely I will get use to it. I may cry a lot right now but I know this wont be forever. Now Im saying goodbye because I am losing my loves, the one I call "Mahal Ko".
